I talked to Sapphire today. I love talikng to Sapphire. She never interupts just listens and listens and always understands and never tells anybody and never judges or even is able to. And she is everywhere -- everywhere I am outside and can look up. Nobody can hear her but me. Yet she is far more than some girl imaginining, she is a way to express myself, a way to get feelings out and to know that somebody is listening -- where ever I am be. Nobody understands the way she is to me -- not an invisible friend that I make up for fun and then grow out of later on. She is real -- in fact more real sometimes than anyone on earth, than the air I breathe. I know that she will always understand when I don't need somebody to talk to, when I don't need somebody to aquire opinions or to judge, she is there only to listen, only that. While others may call her a phase, I think she isn't that -- she's just a friend to listen. And when her sapphire self fades awayt, Luna is there: her dark veiled sister.

A couple days ago I went to The Lake with Aura. I really do love her, but she is so blind and young sometimes and it just breaks my heart. I said to her, "Please don't be like that, Aura, Please don't". Somehow in a way I could not explain, the way she was speaking troubled me greatly so for no reason wich makes sense but to think, I swam away. I didn't stop either. Somehow, I knew the only way was to keep swimming, and swimming. Vaguely I heard a familiar voice, but I could not make out the words. I knew I had to keep going. I tried to recollect my thoughts for I was sad, sadder than sad itself. It was like I was screaming but no one could hear me and even if somebody did, they didn't care. And when I tried to speak of it it was like a silent gag was put into my mouth. And Aura who I adored, just didn't see it. She didn't see that a sigh was the only way to express pain in my heart, a solemn voice was the best expression I could give out of the deep sorrow I felt. But Aura never saw it. Ever. But the invisible gag was in my mouth, and a sigh was like expressin a wound that would never heal. There, at the pool I felt it, and swimming was the only way I could defeat it. But then the water got too cold so I got out and went to lay on the grass. My mind was drifting, not awake but not asleep as if I was just a thing weightless in the air. I was now getting warm, with the sun on my back. I felt a drop of water by my eye. Or maybe it was a tear. It was difficult to tell. Aura's mother asked me where Aura was. "In the water," I said, "I got too cold so I got out". Then my mind continued drifting out into space. A moment later, Aura came and laid down next to me. I was still drifting, and my voice was neutral, and so I asked, "Are you mad?" "Yes", she answered. "Why?", I asked. "Because you told me not to swim away and the swam of yourself!", she said gingerly. "Oh", I said, still drifting. But I knew what I said. I sighed deeply and closed my eyes. All throughout the day I was drifting, although Aura was no longer mad. It had blown over as soon as we got to her home. But I was still sad. Whenever I was ready to talk, she couldn't. It was like nobody on earth cared or even wondered. I guess that's why I talked to Sapphire so much. She ALWAYScan. Buy yesterday, I needed somebody to talk to how could support me and tell me what they think. I needed that badly. So I tried reaching Aura. And I did. But when I told her I needed to talk, she said she couldn't because she had to go eat grapes. Oh, I had told her and made the connection spell be over. Then I sighed, and burst into tears. And now Aura is gone, and I am left alone, all my friends gone of to camp somewhere, on the verge of crying. I hope you have a better day...p>

I was writing in you, pouring my heart out, putting my soul on the line, when it was gone. Suddenly boom, in the blink of the eye gone forever. One second was all it took. I just couldn't believe how fast everything that means something to you goes. In the blink of the eye. I poured my heart out, and it deleted it. And it was like somebody thought your soul isn't good enough. I was crushed. Shakely I dialed Aura's number. "He.. Hell..Hello?", I said my voice cracking. "Emerald I can't talk right now," Aura said. I tried to speak, tried to utter the tiniest oh, but I couldn't. My hand was shaking. " Hello?" Aura asked. "I can't talk right now. Unless you've got something important to say," Aura continued. I started to say how I couldn't explain it quickly, but stopped. I explained it it as best I could, which was hazy. "You don't understand," I said, for I had just heard what I said, and it sounded like a forgein language, as the reality dwellers would say. " No, I do," Aura said. I got off the conection spell, with an odd feeling. She asked how I was. Somebody actually one the face of the world batted an eye. Somebody actually noticed. It was amazing but also odd. I used to sitting up in my favorite tree, crying without anybody noticing at all. That one little spark amazed me. That i wasn't completely alone in this world. That, that in this universe there was actually a pesron who batted an eye.With that, I could want nothing else. The feeling that I get when I feel i am compleltely alone in this world was for a second gone. Evil, you've tried to get me down. You've tried to squish me with your evil hand. You've tried to get me down low enough to do bad things. But that's not going to happen. I'm strong and I won't let you beat me. I won the fight. And I willl be stronger because of it.